Life's a Dance

High School

2010-08-16T09:38:00.000-05:00

It's hard to fathom that my baby boy Zach started HIGH SCHOOL today. Well, he isn't technically my baby but he's the baby of my oldest 3 boys so he is one of my baby boys. Make sense? Not really? Yeah, I know but trust me.. he really is!

Zach was a total, absolute, HOLY SHIT pregnancy. My marriage was falling apart and another baby was the last thing I had planned. The pregnancy was super easy and delivery a breeze but 2 days after he was born I developed a high fever (105) and was readmitted to the hospital for the next 9 days. I was terrified and seriously thought I was dying. My doctor pulled a few strings and they actually allowed Zach to stay in the room with me once I was stabilized. His dad would come every day after work, my mom would be there before work (and after) but during the day Zach would lay on my chest...aaalllll day long. Few distractions, no older siblings to need my attention - just Zach and I laying in the hospital bed. He would lay there and look at me and sleep and the child never cried. He cooed but never cried. He was the best baby I could have ever dreamed of having. He had a special, soothing, calming, sweet, almost heavenly like aura. I can not explain the calming effect that child had on me. I'm a very anxious, high strung person but as soon as I touched him, I was calmed. Zach and I developed a special bond that has never waivered.

When Zach was 2 years old, his father and I separated - a major guilt factor for me but it was something that had to be done. Maybe because he only remembers "me" always being there strengthens our bond? Maybe my guilt and level of protection I have with him strengthens our bond? Maybe, maybe not. Regardless, Zach has been right there with his mommy through a lot of "stuff" and has always been my baby boy.

Once of my favorite Zach stories: When he was younger, like a lot of little boys, he always told me he wanted to marry me one day. His reason? He wanted to marry me so he could sleep in my bed and cuddle every single night. He now denies and cringes every time I tell that story but that tells you what a sweet, kind soul he is.

Fast Forward 15 years.... Zach's first day of High School is today. I'm so excited for him and it's such a milestone for him (and for me). He's now attending a private, Christian school and he has such wonderful things ahead of him! His love of the Lord inspires me daily. Zach wanted to go to a Christian school because he wanted a place where he was surrounded by kids that also lived their life to fulfill their God-given purpose. He was appalled at the things his "friends" were doing at his other school and wanted no part. That... that is my Zach. (and OK, he was also excited to be a part of a winning sports team, unlike the public high school!)

Zach's First Day of High School 8/16/2010

There is no doubt that my kind, sweet child will do wonderful things in his life and I have never been more proud to be his mom.

Ablationed

2010-07-24T13:11:00.000-05:00

This last week I had an Endometrial Ablation - fun stuff.

I'm not sure why it effected me the way it did but it was a very emotional week prior to the procedure. You see, this means I can't have anymore kids. Yes, I already have FIVE kids. Yes, I already had a tubal ligation. But still. No, I have no desire to have anymore kids. But still. It means no way, no how. My body is done.

After the procedure they wheeled me out through the OB Unit. As soon as they opened the door, the smell about knocked me over. Fresh baby smell. Cue tears. No sad tears, just fresh baby tears. The kind that make you smile. They took me down on the same elevator I used when I was left the hospital after Cade and Callie were born. Bittersweet but mostly sweet.

I came home to a helpful husband, my kids waiting on me and everyone pampering me. Not a bad way to spend a Friday.

No more horrible "red" months, my kids are old enough to be helpful, I'm alive and healthy.

Maybe this 40 thing won't be too bad after all.

Camp Awesomeness

2010-07-06T22:11:00.001-05:00

We just returned from Metro Camp at Riverbend Retreat. It was simply.... awesome.

My kids have been going to this camp for years, my sister is the Camp Director, my mom is the "Mama" and does a gazillion different jobs, my nephew Brendon is the drummer in the band and my son Zach, niece Allie and nephew Tanner are all Rec Leaders. I was feeling a little left out and decided to take on the job as Camp Photographer and Media/PR person :)

We (staff) spent six days and 600 campers were there for five days.

Here are the 3 cutest campers (in my very bias opinion)-

My Cade, his BFF Jacob and his cousin Miles

Here are a few more of my favorite pics:

The big, bad "Blue Crew"

Zach, the "Green Team" Rec Leader and Callie (she got to come visit the last day).

My precious niece Allie and Cade.

My nephew Brendon, the drummer.

Nephew Tanner and Cade being goofballs (two peas in a pod).

It was truly an amazing week when God's Kingdom grew by 50 - YES, FIFTY precious little ones. Wow, true awesomeness- and a week of making incredible memories with my family.

Shaken

2010-06-02T23:51:00.000-05:00

There's not a lot to say about this right now. I'm shaken to the core by this story.

Rest in peace, sweet Henry...

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Losin' It

2010-06-01T16:48:00.000-05:00

I am losin' it.... the weight, that is!

I started p90x over a month ago, went strong for 3 weeks and LOST NINE POUNDS! I felt awesome. Then I got super busy with work, went out of town on business, blah, blah, blah. Basically, I let everything else get in the way of ME and taking care of ME. Luckily, I kept losing a little because I have drastically changed my eating habits.

Today, I start back at Day 1 on p90x and I am ready to lose more and feel even better!

Seriously, if you haven't heard of p90x, check it out. It is truly amazing :)

Office with a View

2010-03-30T17:08:00.000-05:00

Sometimes I miss working in a "real" office but then I look out my office window and I remember why I choose not to.

How awesome is this view? I've never before worked in an office where you could watch your kids sell lemonade. (Of course I made a LOT more money before but we won't go there and ruin the moment.)

Disclaimer: These are NOT all my children.

Heavy

2010-03-28T13:53:00.000-05:00

At 37 years old, I had always been one of those "skinny bitches" that could eat whatever they want and never gain a pound. Then my husband and I split up. We lost our house, I lost my beautiful SUV, we lost pretty much everything. And me? I lost another 20 pounds in just a few months. At 5' 8", I was 123 pounds dripping wet. It was not a pretty thing. That's what deep depression, severe stress, no job and what was most likely a mental breakdown can do to you.

Fast forward 3 years.

My marriage was repaired, is stronger than ever and I'm happy. I turned 40. The skinny bitch? She's gone. No clue where the hell she went but she's long gone.

For the first time in my life, I'm heavy. OK, maybe I'm even a little fat. And this? This is not easy for someone that has NEVER had to worry about her weight or worry about what she eats. I realized that I don't even know how to eat healthy. I hate working out. I can't run anymore because it hurts my knees (did I mention I turned 40). It just sucks but I hate, hate, hate the way I feel about myself. I feel old for the first time in my life and I feel heavy. This feeling is not a good thing.

This week I start a new program and I am off to find the skinny bitch that lives inside me. I know I will have to work my butt off to find that bitch and keep her out but I WILL FIND HER. The bonus is that I will also learn to eat healthy and BE healthy 'cus ya know, I did turn 40 and that alone is pretty heavy stuff.

THREE Entire Seconds of FAME

2010-03-21T17:00:00.001-05:00

Last night while on Twitter, one of our local weather guys tweeted about needing pictures for the newscast. You see, it was snowing. Snowing in Fort Worth. Fort Worth, TEXAS. At the end of March. This just doesn't happen.

Of course, I sent him a picture and then he emailed me back to ask where I took the picture. Sooooo I knew he just might use my picture - squeeeeee. We set all the DVR's since we were in the middle of Family Movie Night and watching Astro Boy ~~but actually I was reading blogs and twitter on my laptop~~. I also texted friends and family that I knew were home. I didn't want anyone to miss my weather debut.

A little after 10pm, I run to the back TV and SSQQUUEEEEEEE... 3, yes THREE ENTIRE SECONDS my picture and my name are plastered on WFAA Channel 8 news.

Yeah, yeah it's the small things people.

Thank you, Steve McCauley. I'm now hopelessly devoted to your tweets and your weather reports :)

Poison....

2010-03-20T18:43:00.001-05:00

poi·son [poi-zuhn]

something harmful or pernicious, as to happiness or well-being: (the poison of slander.)

I really loved blogging and getting my stuff out there but I never understood how people looked at blogging as therapy. Now I understand. I understand because I have at least 50 unpublished (finished) post. Some that are way too long winded but most that I just can't publish because my blog was "found". And by found, I mean discovered by family members that like to start trouble (hint- they aren't blood related).

It's frustrating and I could do an entire post on why. Now that? THAT would be one looong winded post! Instead, I simply deleted the majority of my post and I will start blogging again about...ummm.. the weather?? Yeah, fun times ahead people.

Some people are poison. Plain and simple. Poison.

Halloween Fun

2009-11-01T23:04:00.005-06:00

You know it's been too long when you can't remember how to log in to your blog. Here's my lame attempt at getting back to blogging, atleast more than once every 6 months :)

Here's a little fun from our home to yours.

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Yep, I'm still here!

2009-04-06T23:01:00.018-05:00

First of all, for reasons you might guess I had to delete the last 2 blog entries. Those of you who guessed the outcome - you were correct. I need to chill a little regarding that subject because there's not a dang thing I can do about it - other than keep praying. Blake is still in Germany and doing well. Even though he turned 19 last week, I still miss him so much. It's getting close to a year since I've been able to hug him. He calls often and e-mails but it's not the same. Callie cries at least once a week because she wants her Bubba Blake to come home. She is the child that wants everyone home and together and doesn't like it when any one family member is gone - anywhere! She doesn't grasp the concept of him being an "adult" and the fact that he will never really live at home with us again. It makes me sad for her. I wonder if she will ever even remember when we all lived together as a family. She was 4 when he left so most likely not.

Moving on.....

I have been a tad busy lately! We're almost all settled in the new house. Yes, I know it's been 2 months but I had also just started a new job and coming out of my "cloud" so it has taken a while. Plus this house is just too damn big! I remember now why I told myself I would NEVER have another 2 story house. I do love the house though and it's finally starting to feel like home.

Also, in the last 2 months Cade started baseball (4-5 times a week), Callie started cheer and power tumbling (2 days a week), Ryan is umping baseball (5 days a week - thank God he drives!), and Zach is getting ready for his first year as a Jr. Camp Counselor at church camp! Did I mention things are a little crazy around here? :)

Sean Goldman

2009-02-04T11:31:00.012-06:00

Have you seen this?? I saw this last week on Dateline and was absolutely glued to my TV, astonished and sick.

Here is an excerpt from his website:
"June 16, 2004 David Goldman said goodbye to his son, Sean, at Newark Airport. He didn't know it at the time but his wife, Bruna, and her parents Silvana Bianchi Ribeiro and Raimundo Ribeiro were in the process of abducting Sean and taking him to Brazil with no intention of ever returning. According to the Hague Convention, to which both the United States and Brazil are signatories, this was a clear case of international child abduction, otherwise known as parental kidnapping."

After the mother got him to Brazil she gets a Brazilian divorce, remarries a prominent lawyer, gets pregnant, and then passes away during childbirth. You would think the child would then be returned, right? Nope. Now the step-father has filed for David's (the father) name to be taken off his birth certificate and for him to be the legal parent. Huh?? What?? David has fought this and has not seen his son in FOUR YEARS despite numerous trips to Brazil and court ordered visitation in which the step-father has refused to abide with. From what it sounds like, the step-father's family has major influence in Brazilian courts (his father is also a prominent attorney) but in my opinion they are simply criminals.

Note that there was never any allegations of abuse by the mother. Quite the contrary actually. She repeatedly said how lucky her son was to have such a good father - this was even said after she abducted him!

Here's what gets me the most. Why aren't we, as in the USA, getting this little boy HOME where he belongs? He is a United States Citizen! He has been KIDNAPPED. He has been gone for FOUR YEARS. His only living parent is HERE in the US. What part of this is right?? If this was a MIA soldier, wouldn't we be doing everything we could to being him home? This is a helpless child. It makes me sick that our government has not done more to end this nonsense and quite frankly, it scares me.

There's a petition here that you can sign. You can also do as I have and write your Congressmen and Senators. Maybe if enough attention is brought their way they will see the importance of this issue and bring this child home where he belongs!

Happy NEW YEAR!!

2008-12-31T18:56:00.003-06:00

I am so grateful to say ADIOS to 2008 and that's all I got to say about that! Don't let the door getcha! It sucked but I hope to learn from it and never make the same mistakes again. Yeah right, but it's a nice thought!

We are on our way to bring in the NEW YEAR with friends and drink way too much and shoot fireworks and just have way too much fun and I can not wait!

I love the New Year because it brings new hope and new dreams and I NEED IT! It's also a time for me to realize just how truly blessed I am to have 5 wonderful, healthy kids and a marriage that has overcome all obstacles and is richer than ever.

So tonight I will say good bye to a crap year with my friends, my husband, and my kids and I will welcome a new year in to our lives!

Cheers and best wishes to you all! Have a SAFE and wonderful New Year!

Merry Christmas

2008-12-26T19:54:00.015-06:00

I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas! We had a great celebrating of the birth of Jesus - the true reason for the season! Callie spent the day singing Happy Birthday Jesus and it truly warmed my heart and gave me such peace knowing it is because of Him we live today.

As sad as my days have been, I know how truly blessed I am to have 5 beautiful and healthy kids and the most amazing family a girl could dream of. I'm so blessed to have a husband that loves me and "gets me" at least most of the time :) so I chose to spend most of my day soaking in the love around me and it was fabulous. A call from Blake made the day closer to just perfect.

Hubby and I didn't exchange gifts this year for obvious reasons but I think the Wii that Santa brought was more fun that anything we would have bought each other. What a fun family gift!! We have had a blast!!

The kids got lots of other stuff including a video game chair (for the 360), Cade got a phone and yes I'm afraid I'll regret it, and lots more "stuff" for all.

My VERY FAVORITE gift I got was from my sister. She gave me, Callie, Allie, and my mom all an envelope that we had to open at the same time. There was a card with a picture of us 5 girls (included her) and it said, "Guess What? It's Sundays with the Girls!" and then the inside listed 4 shows from the Dallas Summer Musicals that she bought us ALL tickets for!!! Oh my gosh, I can not tell you how excited I am!! As you might guess from the title of my blog, I'm a dancer - err - I WAS a dancer and let me tell you that I LOVE MUSICALS and want to expose Callie to as many as possible but haven't been able to as much as I would like and NOW I CAN!!! So here's our schedule:

June: Happy Days
July: A Chorus Line
August: Mary Poppins
September: Legally Blonde

The shows are all at 2pm so we will all go to early service that day then the girls will head for lunch and a show! Oh, I cried when I opened this gift. Pure tears of joy. I just can not explain how excited I am to spend these days with my daughter, my sister, my niece, and my mom. Ab.so.lute.ly PERFECT!

Tomorrow we head to Abilene for Christmas with the in-laws and that's all I will say about that. Why? Because I'm in a good place at the moment and don't feel like a meltdown :)

Really, I couldn't make this up if I tried

2008-12-18T20:24:00.022-06:00

So my new job, the one I spoke about last time I posted - which seems like months ago. I went in my first day so excited and knowing that while this wasn't necessarily a new career, it was something to get me out of the house, stimulate my brain on a level higher than that of a 5 year old and actually make a little money. Positive thinking and praising God for the opportunity.

Well....

8:05am - I walk in to the training room, open my training binder and the very first page states that while in training (first 2 weeks) I will be paid $6.55 per hour. Yes. Seriously. I mean no disrespect... but WHO IN THE HELL MAKES $6.55 per hour???

8:10am - I am handed my "call script" and asked to read over it. My "call script" for an Account Manager position? I'm still trying to keep an open mind and read over the script quietly while the trainer tends to others.

8:30am - The trainer explains that this is indeed the best company to work for! The company contracts with various non profits - mainly schools - and then we sell the advertising on the back of the shirt. And then she says... "You will find no other telemarketing job as fulfilling as this." Ummm.....what the hell did you just say? Telemarketing??? Ok, that's just her term for doing most of your work via the phone..right?? WRONG!

8:40am - I excuse myself to the restroom and do all I can not to burst into tears.

9:15am - One of the girls in the training raises her hand and ask, "What do you do with the extra shirts? I ask because I'm living in a shelter right now and we are all so excited when people donate clothes." Yes, my coworker is homeless.

10:00am - TEN MINUTE break! We are instructed that we must be sitting in our seats when the "music starts" at 10:10 or we will receive a "mark" and after 3 "marks" our pay will be decreased $1 per hour for the entire week. We must use the restroom during this time as we will not "be allowed" to use the restroom again until lunch. Yes. Seriously.

10:01am - I go to my car and contemplate driving off. Had I not left my purse inside, I may have done just that. Instead, I pray and I get a little teary eyed. I send a mass text to friends and family to let them know that I think I may be in the midst of a "punk" because this can not really be happening to me.

10:10am - The music starts and my butt is in my seat like a good little girl.

10:30am - The trainer tells me that I am too professional and need to understand that the kinds of businesses I will be calling on are small businesses and will be intimidated and hang up if I sound too professional. She then proceeds to tell a story about a phone call she made in which she joked with the business owner and told him that she thought he was probably too drunk at the games to ever notice the free shirts being thrown - and that yes, that's a more acceptable approach!

10:45am - I start sinking further in my seat, wondering what in the hell I am doing here and why in the hell this job had been so grossly misrepresented to me.

11:20am - The trainer announces that today we will only be training a half day today. I perk up a little.

11:25am - Class begins to wrap up for the day and another girl in training raises her hand and ask if the trainer could please sign her "slip" before we leave. She then proceeds to pass her a sheet of paper with "Tarrant County Department of Corrections " prominently displayed across the top. Yes, she needed to get her Probation/Parole slip signed. Oh.My.Gosh. For Real!!

11:30am - I leave. I call my husband and upon hearing his voice burst into tears. I then call my Mom and again I burst into tears.

I wasn't upset because I was working with a homeless person, a convict, or because I was making $6.55 per hour. I was upset because I was in total disbelief at how far I have fallen. Two years ago I was making 6 figures and now I was making 6 dollars. Holy crap.

Needless to say, hubby came home and after giving me a big and much needed hug, told me no way was I going back. Whew! I did not argue and no, I did not go back. I sent a nice professional email and stated that it simply wasn't a good fit for me.

I am so tired of being an emotional wreck and damn it I just want a REAL JOB!!!!

THE GOOD - the former VP of Marketing at my last job has started his own publishing company. He will be publishing a magazine and HE CALLED ME TODAY AND WANTS ME TO COME WORK FOR HIM! We talked on the phone for quite a while and we're meeting Monday morning at Starbucks so he can show me the mock ups and give me more information. Like he has to sell me on it? Little does he know, I am soooo in!!! I do want to find out a little more on the company and the investors, backing, etc. before I give him a definite answer but I know him well and worked with him for years and feel good about it. Then again, I feel silly getting excited about any job because well... what a joke. I'm trying to have faith but I admit I got a little pissed at God for a few days after this last fiasco.

I'm trying right now to just focus on Christmas and family because if i sit too much and think - well, it's not a good thing. I seriously am worried about my mental state - or lack there of. I just seem to be sinking further and further into this depression and I'm trying so hard to pull myself out but it's just not happening. I'm now sleeping 12 hours plus a day and I know that's not good. Ugh. It's like quick sand and I can't do anything to get out. For those wondering, I have NO health insurance so no I can't get back on my meds right now. Yeah, first time I have EVER IN MY LIFE been without insurance and I need it more than ever before. That's the quick sand again - sucking me down.

So, that's my jolly update. Hope you're all enjoying the holidays.

momma got a JOB!!!

2008-12-09T16:47:00.000-06:00

Yes
, I really got a job and I start tomorrow! Falalalalalalalala

I'm super excited! Its in the advertising/ non profit industry and its not the best job as far as pay but ya know what? I don't care because its a JOB and u think I will really enjoy the work. Actually, I WILL enjoy it because well, I am grateful to my Lord because I have no doubt He put this opportunity in my lap.

Things are insane right now trying to figure out childcare for the next 2 weeks. Hubby has 2 weeks off at Christmas so I didn't want to start Callie in preschool til after the first of the year. Mom and my oldest sons ex girlfriend are helping me out for now so its all good! Now I just have to figure out a schedule for everyone. Its challenging but it will work out and I have a JOB!!!!
We have Cades Christmas program at school tonight so hoping I will get in the Christmas spirit. Knowing I have a check coming in before Christmas most definitely helps!!

Thanksgiving 2008 Pics

2008-12-05T14:07:00.023-06:00

Thanksgiving was awesome! We all missed Blake terribly and when my grandfather blessed our dinner and spoke about Blake, I lost it. Quietly lost it- but lost it. We did finally get to talk to him though and he was enjoying his Thanksgiving with all his buddies.

There was so much to be thankful for this year. After the last 2 years of craziness, we are finally a family again and my family treated us as one - with love and respect - just as I knew they would.

This was the first real family get together since we have been officially back together and hubby was a little nervous but I have the most incredible family and I know they would never do anything to disrespect our marriage. They have way too much class for that.

My entire family (knowing all they know) truly respects our marriage and our love more than they ever have. I think part of it is because I have shown that I can forgive him for what happened and I can love him more than ever. I was never the forgiving kind before - I could hold a grudge like no other and for a while I did!! Regardless, it doesn't really matter anymore what cruel and hateful words might spew from the mouths of "others". We know we have a safe and loving place to enjoy the holidays and that rocks!!

I love my family so much and I am so grateful for their acceptance. I am so lucky to call them mine :) We can't wait until Christmas when we're all together again!!

Internet Withdrawls

2008-12-04T18:10:00.015-06:00

I have a working pc with internet - THANK YOU GOD!! Laptops fried and only have one working desktop but that's ok - I am happy! It's funny when I think about what in the world I did before internet.

I was telling hubby (well, whining to hubby) that I couldn't even look for a job because I had no internet and he asked me, "can't you look in the paper?" Well, duh yeah I can do that but then again, few employers use the newspaper for recruitment anymore. I can't exactly "post my resume" in the newspaper either and then sit and await the job wanting me to work 20 hours a week and pay me $200k a year, now can I?

Then I decided to do the fun cinnamon Christmas ornaments with the kids. I went in to a pout because I couldn't get online to find the recipe only to finally remember that I do own a gazillion books and among them were many kid craft books. Amazingly enough, I found the recipe I was looking for but it wasn't nearly as easy as googling it.

Next, I got a letter from our storage company saying we were past due on our storage unit. Well, how can that be when it's debited from our account every month? Let me pull up the bank account and see if they debited it - NOT. What the hell was I supposed to do??? Look at the paper statement? Seriously, like open the statement? After going through 5 unopened statements I found what I needed. Not sure why we even still get paper statements but sure glad we do!

At night, instead of cuddling up with my laptop, as I do every night, I have actually been curling up with a BOOK! I know, seriously wild or what? I've been reading a book. Personally, I love me a good audiobook in the iPod and it was really odd reading an actual book again. That's kinda sad but it's true.

I've learned from my week without internet that 1) I am one lazy girl and 2) I AM SooOOoOOo grateful for my pc and my internet :)

I can't wait until kids go to bed so I can come back and read all the blogs I've missed . Yeah! I can breathe again - and be a lazy butt!

my gentle nudge

2008-12-02T15:24:00.000-06:00

I should be working my new glorious job right now- you know, the one I never started. This would be my second full week had I started. As I sat feeling sorry for myself, thinking about how I should be working I hear something from the other room. An all familiar sound of callies asthma cough, though I hadn't heard it in 12 months!! Yep a year of asthma free baby girl and its back. After I searched boxes for her nebulizer (yuck, on blackberry with no spellcheck) and found the coveted albuterol, we are now back in to the breathing treatments every few hours, while my poor baby girls wheezing away. Can you imagine what would have happened had I been working? I would have most likely already had to take a sick day- or 2! Jeez!!! She's pretty sick and feeling pretty yuck so we've spent lots of time cuddling the last 2 days. So thank you God for the reminder and for the nudge but I got it, so enough already:)

As for update on our computers- they are gone. Nuff said.

last day of NaBlo- tyvm

2008-11-30T18:25:00.000-06:00

Well I did it. Yeah me.its been a fun month and I've met some awesome people.

Church was great this morning and I'm so glad I told callie to make mommy go to church- sure enough the minute she opened her eyes this morning she was telling me to get ready for church! Role reversal? Ya think? Sad too, yeah I know.

Thanks for the sweet comments on my last post and yes Jill- we really do need a margarita night. You know as well as anyone that when I'm in a funk I pull away from my friends and those that love me most. Well I'm in a funk so drag my butt outta the house and let's do it!

Hope you all have a great week.

I want my laptop!! Wah wah wah

funk

2008-11-29T13:45:00.000-06:00

Yeah I'm feeling myself spiraling back into my familiar funk. The last year and half have quite frankly been hell and I've found myself in this place more than once. I'm just depressed. I finally was able to stop taking my meds a few months ago but I'm thinking ill be calling my Dr monday to start them back. I think the job thing really did me in this time. I wish so bad I could get out of this but if you've ever suffered from situational depression- you know its not that easy. I try and try to stay positive and keep my faith but I feel just paralyzed now with the fact that were screwed financially. I mean seriously screwed as in how the hell are we going to have Christmas? I've bought quite a few things but we have a huge family and I've barely made a dent. Part of my Christmas was making slide show DVDs. I've scanned hundreds of pics and now- the virus on my pc- mother board is fried. My pics are gone. All those gifts are gone. Hence the spiral in to a funk from hell. I feel like my life is just one step forward and 5 freakin back. I'm tired of not having a job. its Christmas and it makes me terribly miss my house that we lost when my husband flipped out and left so even though were back together, my beautiful house is gone. Our house that was always so gorgeous during the holidays is gone. No longer ours.I know its just a thing but it was our home and this Christmas will be spent in this tiny piece of crap house that I despise. Yes were fortunate to have a home and I know that but its not ours. Not my beautful home that we built and poured every bit of our savings in to. Nope that's gone.

Have I mentioned its been a crappy year? I'm just tired of it all and tired of trying to stay positive because in reality- IT SUCKS!!

I'm sure ill regret posting this but I feel better already just writing it down- even if its on my stupid blackberry. Still sucks though.
Gosh I hate it when people have pity parties and I apologize but I needed to vent.

this is not good...

2008-11-28T10:48:00.000-06:00

We have a virus in our home network. Laptops- dead. Desktops- dead. Me?---dying!!!

I have only my blackberry which is a pain but at least I have that. Unfortunately I can't upload my pics though- which are ALL uploaded on my laptop. Which is dead. I'm pissed. Hoping and praying the hard drives aren't fried.

Ugh.

On a better note- shopping this morning was good! So good that I'm now going to barricade myself in my bedroom and take a big fat nap- and dream about my beautiful laptop.

happy turkey day

2008-11-27T14:39:00.000-06:00

Hope you're all having a fabulous day filled with lots of love and family- because I sure am! Were at my parents- stuffed and awaiting cowboy kick off along with the rest of the family. Missing Blake really bad and the terrorist craziness in India makes me more than a little anxious to talk to him. Have phone in hand at all times- awaiting his call!!
I can not wait for 4am tomorrow- yes I am a crazy fool that's shopping in the morning and I'm ready!!
Happy Thanksgiving friends!

Wordless Wednesday Thankful for my Family

2008-11-26T07:22:00.011-06:00

I'm so very thankful for my family and so excited that they will all be here in only a FEW HOURS!! Yippee!!! The wine is chilling, the beers on ice (yes, that's just how we roll) and I'm off to the store to get ingredients for my nephews fav cookies. It is going to be a fabulous, fun filled few days of family!

It's still bitter sweet since Blake will not be here but thanks to my new bloggy friend Wendy, whose son is on his 2nd tour of Iraq, I've figured a way to kinda sorta incorporate him in to the fun.

So much for wordless :) Here's a pic of all the girls, minus the twins.

From left: Allie (my sweet niece and Callie's namesake), my mom, my grandmother (aka Munner), me holding Callie, and my sis

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Movies, Candles, and more random

2008-11-25T08:31:00.012-06:00

Hope you're all having a fabulous week! Callie and I saw High School Musical 3 on Sunday and she LOVED it. We sat on the aisle of the very top row and baby girl stood and danced for pretty much 2 solid hours - that's my girl! There were only about 10 people in a huge theater. No one could see her but me so why not? As for me, I love any musical - I love dance! I'm glad the boys chose not to come because they would have been miserable.

Hubby and the boys saw James Bond yesterday while Callie and I made candles. I failed. These candles are awesome as far as presentation but I can't seem to get the scent strong enough - or even recognizable. I used this crockpot method and it is sooo easy - with the exception of scent. To me and my friends and family - candles are all about the scent. Anyone have suggestions on the best scented oil for homemade candles?

I'm so excited that the holidays are here and I am unemployed! It will a fun holiday season and the last holiday season I will have a child home (not in school.) Get this - I have had a child under the age 5 for the last 19 YEARS! Holy CRAP! When Callie starts school next year, it will be close to 20 years. No wonder I'm starting to feel old and tired.

We are off for some family fun! Hoping to get by the big Steve & Barry's at Grapevine Mills today. If you missed it, they really are going out of business but haven't announced it publicly yet. The deals are AMAZING!! If there is one close to you, check it out!

I'm a Pumpkin Pie

2008-11-24T14:47:00.003-06:00

ohhhh yuuummmyyyy!!!! I love me some pumpkin pie! What part of Thanksgiving are you??

You Are Pumpkin Pie

Even when people are full - they make room for you.

Good or bad, your smell is most likely to arouse a man.

What Part of Thanksgiving Are You?

Tagged!

2008-11-23T09:46:00.021-06:00

Gwen over at Confessions of a Control Freak tagged me and I am so glad because I didn't have to think much about my post today (:

1. What is your funniest childhood story? Oh that's easy. It was the summer between my freshman and sophomore year and my parents thought it would be good to send me to a boarding school for the summer. Yes, I had discovered how to have a lil too much fun. We were sitting in Biology class and I remember my teacher was an older, uptight, never smiled kind of teacher. It was an 8am class and she would make us take turns reading aloud from the book at the first of every class. When my turn rolled around I began reading. My chapter just happened to be on Organisms, only I called them Orgasms. Yes, aloud in the class I read about the orgasms. It was the first time I ever heard that teacher laugh or smile. I was mortified but I do still laugh about it to this day. And for the record, I don't think I really even knew what the word orgasm meant!

2. What would your dream dress look like if you could design it? It would definitely be black and maybe 6" from the floor. Slim fitting - this means it would not fit my current body so we will just stop there.

3. What weird habit does your hubby have? Only one? hmm that would have to be the noise he makes when his throat is scratchy. It's like a dying, honking animal and it's AWFUL! Irritates the crap out of me! Especially when he does it in the middle of the night and wakes me up. Annoying, annoying, annoying! Then there's the blowing his nose in the shower. OMG freakin' NASTY!!! Please note that today may not have been a good day to ask me about dear hubby and what annoys me because thus far, everything he has done today has irritated the hell outta me.

4. How many cookbooks are in your kitchen? None. They have their own shelf in the pantry.

5. Granny panties or loyal Victoria's Secret girl? Victoria's Secret although if my butt continues growing at the rate it is, I may have to resort back to Grannies - YUCK!!!!

6. My favorite memory from 2008 so far is... Gosh, with 5 kids I can't name just one. Any memory involving my family is usually - usually - a great memory.

7. I secretly... am terrified of what will happen with our country and what it will mean for Blake.

8. I could really go for... A JOB!!!!

9. We are going to have a big snow storm and you will find me... running to the grocery store to stock up - along with all the others in Fort Worth who still believe the weatherman when he predicts it. Ya see, it rarely ever accumulates when they predict it, only when they don't!

10. I knew he was the one... on our first real date at Uncle Julio's when we sat and talked until they kicked us out. We had been there for over 3 hours drinking margaritas, chatting away and had not realized every.single.patron was gone and they were closed.

Now for my tags.... I Tag:

Baja Bound

Taking All He Gives

Regular Voices

I Am Thankful for Laundry

2008-11-22T06:25:00.014-06:00

I am Thankful that I have 10 loads of laundry to do because it means my family has plenty of clothing to wear on these cold days. It means that no matter how frustrated I am with our current financial situation, we are able to meet the needs of our family.

Yes, I am trying to dig myself out of my funk and remember that while times seem hard - who I am kidding, they ARE hard, we could be sooo much worse off than we are. I am blessed to have laundry because their are so many children out there with no warm clothes. Yesterday my kids cleaned out their lockers (teachers make them before break) and the two youngest boys had 3 coats each in their lockers. It's cold here in the mornings but most afternoons its up in the 70's and coats are easily forgotten at school. Anyway, that's not my point (: Point is we are blessed and things could be so much worse. While I want to give my children everything and sometimes I wish I could give them more, I think about the many kids who are so much worse off and only wish they could have all my kids have.

Last night we went to meet my mom to hand off the boys to her for the weekend. They have a ranch about an hour away and they are working there all weekend since they won't be back there during the Thanksgiving week. (though I feel sure my Dad will sneak up there) Mom wanted the boys to come up and help, even though they ride the golf cart around and play more than helping lol SO we met mom and the town where we met has an AWESOME Mexican food restaurant with the best margaritas. Hubby, Callie, and I headed straight there after handing the kids off at 5:30. Cold night in Texas = Mexican, baby! We ate, drank those yummy margaritas and were home by 7:40. I was out cold, snuggled up with my snugglebug Callie by 8pm. Party girl I am no more! Needless to say, I was wide awake at 4:30am. OMG I feel like my grandparents!!! I am sooo getting old but ya know what? it's now 6:30 am and I've done 2 loads of laundry, cleaned up the kitchen, watched a lil TV and finished my Christmas list. I've still got a good 2 hours before anyone else wakes up and by the time they do I'll be ready for a nap. For now, I'm sneaking hubby's Visa and I'm off to Wal-Mart! I'm thinking I can fly through there pretty quick this time of day. Did I mention I'm getting really old?

Enjoy your Saturday, friends!!

Thankful for being Unemployed

2008-11-21T08:09:00.020-06:00

I am thankful for being unemployed because it means I can spend a fun filled week with my family!

Less than a week away from the family gathering all together for Thanksgiving Week! I am so excited but I am dreading Blake not being with us. I know it'll be hard for him, too.

Today is the last day for hubby to work and for kids school. OK, I'll be honest that the selfish part of me kinda sorta wishes they didn't all have 9 days off. Callie and I have our schedule and a certain way of doing things every day and they'll most likely mess it up :) but it'll be fun.

Hubby has a couple of students that work here and they gave him free tickets! Yeah, we'll take those and we are soooo appreciative of them! When you have as many kids as we do, it's a little costly to go to the movies much - well, many kids and a mom with no job! Sunday night we are taking them to see High School Musical 3 and then Tuesday night we're planning to see the new James Bond movie Quantum of Solace. I was just looking at the reviews for Quantum and I have a feeling Callie and I will skip that one. Doesn't look too appropriate for her.

Monday we are taking the kids on the Trinity Rail Express to Downtown Dallas to Dealey Plaza. Can you believe I have lived mere miles all my life and never been? We've both wanted to go for years and we're finally going. I'm excited! We'll eat lunch and shop and it'll be a day of fun!

Wednesday is my birthday - my 29th birthday - hahahahaha. My grandparents and my brother and his family also come in town Wednesday! My sis and her family will also meet us all at my parents that night for homemade chili and bday celebration. Then Turkey Day followed by Shoppin' Day! I am so, so excited for everyone to get here and have 3 days together. Fun, fun, fun!!

I'll be missing my baby boy though. It won't be the same without the oldest grandchild there to make sure he gets all the lil ones good and hyped up! The annual football game will have a definite missing piece. I'm now in tears at the thought. Hug your kids tight. They'll be grown up and gone before you know it. Trust me.

Fabulous Award?? Who me??

2008-11-19T21:14:00.021-06:00

Gwen at Confessions of a Control Freak thinks I'm fabulous and she passed this Fabulous Award to me! I found her blog through NaBlo and I am so glad!! She is a warm, kind soul and I love reading her post. Gwen was also the inspiration for me changing my blog header - though the fact that it's off center is driving me crazy!! She's was my first follower so she's near and dear to my bloggy heart (: I'm not feeling too fabulous today, so thank you Gwen and for the record, I think you're fabulous, too!

1. You have to pass it on to 5 other fabulous blogs in a post.

Nicole at Stubborn Servant is one of my very favorite blog reads. I love her inspirational post and more than once something she has posted about has truly stuck with me and left me thinking. That's what I call a true calling. Pretty awesome that God is working through her and her blog and she is reaching out to others. Just love it when that happens (:
Colie-O from First Comes Love...Then Comes Marriage. She is another of my fav blogs reads and she's also a Sugar Addict like me! She is so sweet with her comments and I really like this girl! Oh and she posted about these awesome frames and I'm making these for Christmas gifts! She was sweet enough to give me step by step instructions. I'm so excited!
Then there is the sometimes hilarious and sometimes deep Butt Ass Shit. Don't let the name fool you, she's an awesome writer or I guess that would now be a fabulous writer!!
Stephanie at A Year of Crockpotting is hands down fabulous! She post a recipe every single day and it is serious detailed! I love recipes and especially crockpot recipes!
I just found Regular Voices yesterday and spent the better part of my night reading her past blogs. She is a truly fabulous writer. I love the fact that while we don't share a lot of the same political beliefs, she is so eloquent in her writing that it makes me stop and think. She doesn't "slam and rant" like many but presents the facts and her feelings. I love her blog and look forward to reading more!

2. You have to list 5 of your fabulous addictions in the post.

Sonic Diet Coke with extra ice
Starbucks Venti Soy Hazelnut Latte with one sugar and steamed to 170
Ann Taylor Loft
Mattel Toy Store Outlet - headed there today!
StumbleUpon - this is a fairly new addiction and let me tell you, I could sit for hours and do this!! it is FABULOUS!!

3. You must copy and paste the rules and the instructions below in the post.

Instructions: On your post of receiving this award, make sure you include the person that gave you the award and link it back to them. When you post your five winners, make sure you link them as well. To add the award to your post, simply right-click, save image, then "add image" it in your post as a picture so your winners can save it as well. To add it to your sidebar, add the "picture" gadget. Also, don't forget to let your winners know they won an award from you by emailing them or leaving a comment on their blog.

Unfreakinemployed

2008-11-19T09:52:00.022-06:00

I worked for 8 years at a major newspaper in DFW in the National Advertising Dept. Great job making great money. When Callie was 2 yo she came down with Chronic Mononucleosis - yeah, two years old. After three months of back and forth between daycare and doctors and after using every sick day I had accumulated AND every vacation day (this was April) I decided it was time. I quit my job. 2 1/2 years later I am beyond ready to go back to work!! We need the money (hubby is a teacher) and I'm in serious need of brain stimulation.

I ran across an guy I worked with at the paper on Facebook, who was now a bigwig at the "other" paper in DFW - the big one! I told him I was looking and he said he had the ideal job for me. I interviewed with him and his big boss twice. I got the job. Even better money than I made before. I was ECSTATIC! I went out and bought $500 in new clothes - my others shrunk - ok fine, maybe I grew.

I knew that the bureaucracy at my new job was quite different that I was accustomed to. I was told that Head Count was being approved, blah, blah, blah but not to worry because "it was going to happen" and to be patient. I chose an awesome preschool for Callie and I was ready! I waited, waited and waited. I was in contact with them each week and was told it was just taking longer than normal.

Yesterday, I get a call that things are "bad" and the lifting of the hiring freeze is unforeseeable. They actually are cutting jobs. In other words, just kidding - you really don't have a job. November 18 is NEVER a good day for me. Something crappy happens on that date EVERY SINGLE YEAR! It's weird, bizarre and it just sucks.

So, I now have no job. Advertising in this economy is in a downward spiral with companies like this and like this going out of business or companies like this cutting advertising staff in half.

I'm not sure what to do at this point. After pitying myself all night last night, this morning I could do nothing but drop to my knees and pray. I had prayed and prayed about this job and I guess it just wasn't what God wanted me to do. I think I know what he wants me to do. I really do think I know my calling but it means going back to school. I think it's safe to say that God doesn't care that I make over $100k a year in advertising and that with a Masters in Social Work I'll be lucky to make $50k in the beginning. Then again I know working with kids is my calling and it is my passion. I also know that I'm not getting in younger - and with next weeks birthday on the horizon I'm reminded of that.

Do I want to die with a nice house and car and surrounded by "things" or do I want to die with a smile on my face knowing I have truly made a difference in the lives of children? I most certainly choose the latter and I think it's time I realize that. I'm going to continue to pray about it and get through next week before I make a definite decision.

Sometimes I don't like God's Will but thankfully I believe in God's Will.

And those new clothes? I kept all the tags on and reciepts safely tucked away and they are going back! That now becomes Christmas money.

Happy Birthday, Courtney & Remembering the Aggies

2008-11-18T14:01:00.012-06:00

November 18th is not a good day for me.

On November 18, 1969 a beautiful little girl named Courtney Lea was born. Courtney and I became the best of friends the day we met - the first day of 7th grade. We both danced and had knew "of" each other from different competitions but since we danced for different companies, we had never met. She was my best friend throughout our high school days. It seems like every memory I have of those days, somehow include her. We were inseperable.

She was the smartest girl. AP, Honors, PEAK, NHS, all of it. Me? ha! Notsomuch. But she wasn't the brainiac kind. That girl knew how to have some fun! She was Ms. Fashion, an amazing and graceful dancer and my best friend. I sometimes laugh out loud when thinking of some of the ridiculously stupid things we did and wonder how on earth we made it out of high school without serious bodily injury. But did I mention, we had soooo much FUN and we laughed when we were together ALL.THE.TIME!

We went to separate colleges and while she was taking a year abroad, I was getting married and starting a family. Naturally, but so regrettably we slowly drifted apart. When she came home from overseas we talked a few times and she was excited about her upcoming college graduation. I was excited about just learning I was pregnant again. I'll never forget our last conversation and her telling me Mark was coming for graduation and she was so excited to see him for the first time in a year. Mark was her high school love.

Two days later, the day of her graduation I got a call. Courtney was gone. She was 22 years old. She had gone out partying the night before with her friends, celebrating the next day's graduation. Mark got to her apartment around 3am to surprise her (he wasn't supposed to be there until the next afternoon) and her roommate let him in - she knew he was coming. He opened the door and she was laying in her bed. She suffered with asthma all her life and autopsy said she had suffocated in her sleep. Yes, there is a good chance she had drank so much that she wasn't awoken when she started struggling to breath. Her inhaler was right next to her bed, as she always kept it. Regardless of the details, she was gone. Died the night before her college graduation.

I've struggled for years wondering why God would take such a beautiful, brilliant young girl with such endless possibilities in life. Now, I've sadly seen innocent babies being taken by disease and I know that it is simply something I could never truly understand.

Her funeral was awful. It was standing room only. We all hugged and we cried and we cried and we cried. It made no sense to any of us. It was a type of reunion and her parents home turned in to one huge party after the funeral - just as Courtney would have wanted. I will never forget a few of us girls laying on her bed after the funeral talking and her Mom bringing me 2 large photo albums that were pictures of Courtney and I. Years worth of poofy hair, leg warmers, Gloria Vanderbilt's and many, many memories. I cherish those pictures so dearly and I cherish the friendship we had. I will always regret us drifting apart in those last few years but I know she knew how much I loved her and that she would forever be my BFF. But damn, I miss her still to this day and I ache for how her Mom must be feeling today. Her Mom was destroyed when Courtney died. It was awful. I've kept in touch with her throughout the years but haven't spoken to her in a couple of years. I think I'll give her a call today.

Happy Birthday, Girlfriend! JCK PATT Forever (:

Today is also the day to remember our Fallen Aggies from the 1999 bonfire tragedy.

Lovin' me some Sprouts!

2008-11-17T10:11:00.001-06:00

Have you ever shopped at Sprouts?? I seriously love, love, love this store! I'm not an organic/ all natural kinda girl but Sprouts might turn me in to one. I don't feed my kids junk (much) but I don't feed them as well as I should either. After reading and hearing more and more about the preservatives, additives, antibiotics, growth hormones, etc. I've slowly started steering my way towards healthier eating for my kids. And then.... I found Sprouts!

Sprouts specializes in farm fresh produce and they buy from local farmers, when possible of course. I'm all for that!! They also have walls of vitamins, supplements, the BEST Acai Berry juice we've found and lots of other organic items. Their fresh meat market and seafood market are unbelievable.

A few of my families favorites at Sprouts-

cherry yogurt covered pretzels

Blackberries - oh so fresh! my kids had both tubs eaten before I finished putting away the groceries!

Stuffed Clam - oh these are just heavenly

Acai Berry Juice - pure and the best we have found. Only $3.89 for a half gallon.

Wine :)

What I like best about this store is that even I can afford it! There are some things that are a little pricey but they are honestly not things I would buy anyway. Their prices on meat and produce is VERY comparable to our local grocery stores and they have excellent weekly specials that save you big money!

Last nights dinner was a Sprouts dinner:

Appetizer - no, we don't always have appetizers but I wanted to try these and I only do fresh seafood the DAY I buy it.

Stuffed Clams - these are premade and fresh in their Seafood Market and full of clam, not just stuffing. Meaty, baby and excellent taste!

Dinner -

Fresh Talapia (again fresh from their Seafood Market) I presoaked them in milk and then marinaded them in a rub consisting of fresh garlic, Tony's, and black pepper. Quick pan fry and served with white rice. Soooo gooood! I've always made this with the frozen Tilapia from WalMart and there is NO comparison on the taste! I buy 4 frozen for around $5 at WalMart and I bought 5 big, meaty (almost double size, seriously) FRESH Tialpa at Sprouts for $8.

Fresh Broccoli - I got this recipe here and my family loves it! Just be careful with the lemon and don't use too much. Trust me.

Tonight, Sprouts meatloaf is on the menu. Yes, they sell premade and ready to pop in the oven meatloaf that is to die for!

Sprouts is only in 4 states but they are starting to sprout up everywhere! (couldn't resist!) If there's one by you, you've got to try it! You won't be disappointed!

Like a crazy girl, I took hubby and the 2 lil ones with me yesterday. Hubby wasn't totally impressed but then again he's a guy - and he was born and raised in West Texas. As we walked in there was a display of water and he said, "oh I'm impressed. They even carry organic, all natural water." I said "yep" and then after it soaked in cracked up laughing! I knew it would be an interesting trip. We ended our adventure standing in line where he asked, "do they carry Copenhagen? all natural, organic Copenhangen, of course." I'm thinking maybe that's why they chose Southlake for their store and not Haslet. I do love my West Texas cowboy.

Ready for some football!

2008-11-16T19:22:00.004-06:00

So I really wanted to blog about my new favorite store but the Cowboys kickoff in 7 minutes and that my friends, is more important than NaBlo blah blah... why?? ROMO IS BACK!!!!!!!! We kinda like football around here. Can ya tell?

We had a great weekend! Hubby got new truck, I think...think... we found a house we both LOVE! We're meeting with the realtor again tomorrow night and we will see what happens. I'm praying for guidance on this one.

oops KICKOFF and we're receiving! cya (:

Na blah blah post

2008-11-15T17:02:00.003-06:00

Waiting on MIL to get here - FIL went to pick her up at airport Then after they leave we're heading out to friends house for the evening sooooo that's all I got. Pretty exciting?

I'm on my third glass of wine, waiting for her to get here. Life is just fine (:

Oh and I ended up taking Cade to Cook Childrens ER yesterday. He started throwing up blood and it seems i tore his esophagus from all the wretching - TMI?? Was a looong day after a loooong night.

You know you're a mom when...

2008-11-14T09:09:00.011-06:00

it's 4am and you suddenly awake to the sound of a child saying, "mom, I think I'm gonna...." and before he can finish his sentence you yell, "BATHROOM, RUN!" as you fly out of bed. As your husband continues to snore and never moves - but that's another story.

You know you're a mom when your standing over the commode with your child at 5am, holding a washcloth on his head and reassuring him that yes, he really can breathe - deep breath, calm down, you're ok. All along your doing all you can not to smell or look because if you're me - you have a REALLY weak tummy!

You know you're a mom when your standing over the commode with your child at 6am thinking to yourself, "he's such a good puker." Then your tired mind starts thinking about all your children and how their different personalities show through the way they puke. Yeah, I seriously need sleep, huh?

You know you're a mom when your back at the commode with child at 7am (this time in the kids bathroom) and you're back holding the washcloth, explaining what a dry heave is and that yes baby, you can breathe, just relax - and looking at the toilet thinking how badly it needs to be cleaned.

You know you're a mom when at 8am you're finally snuggled back in bed with your sick child and you thank God that you don't have a "real" job. Then you enjoy an entire 30 minutes of uninterrupted sleep before another child wakes up and says, "mommy, I'm hungry." ugh

It's going to be a loooonnngggg day. One of those days when working a "real" job sounds "real" good.

Inlaws ETA 24 hours - house cleaned? nope! But it does seriously reek of Lysol!

I wanna talk about me, me, me, me

2008-11-12T16:00:00.000-06:00

I have 2 sick kids today and I no time (or energy) to write so I thought I would share this. I also have to clean my house because my inlaws are coming this weekend. Only for a couple of hours but that's more than enough to cause my ulcer to erupt in full force and my anxiety to paralyze me. Let's just say that my MIL is less than pleasant to me and goes all out to make sure I know how much she dislikes me. Why, you ask? Because my husband and I are back together. Yes, we seperated for a few months and after lots of work are now happier than ever - and no, his family did not want him to be with me - his WIFE and the mother of his CHILDREN. They even threatened to "disinherit" him if we got back together. Yeah, that gives you an idea of the kind of what I'm dealing with here. My own mom suggested I leave while they are here because she says I should not subject myself to her evilness and hurtful actions (and words) but I feel like that would be the wuss way out and I'm no wuss (: Yeah, not a happy camper at the moment but I know it could be worse! I saw this yesterday and I think I will spend my day chanting it:

"We either make ourselves miserable, or we make ourselves strong. The amount of work is the same." Carlos Castaneda

On to the quizzy thingy-

The "rule" is one word answers only - ohhh that's hard.

1. Where is your cell phone? lap

2. Your significant other? work

3. Your hair? Crap

4. Your mother? Ideal

5. Your father? Strong

6. Your favorite thing? Family

7. Your dream last night? Stress (MIL)

8. Your favorite drink? Diet Coke

9. Your dream/goal? JOB

10. The room you're in? Den

11. Your fear? Inlaws (yeah, seriously LOL)

12. Where do you want to be in 6 years? Content

13. Where were you last night? Home

14. What you're not? Insensitive

15. Muffins/donuts? Muffins

16. One of your wish list items? Job

17. Where you grew up? Texas

18. The last thing you did? Chicken Salad

19. What are you wearing? Sweats

20. Your TV? Iritating

21. Your pet? Dead

22. Your computer? Laptop

23. Your life? Questionable

24. Your mood? Blah

25. Missing someone? Blake

26. Favorite pastime? Shopping (need job so that's no longer a pastime!!!!!)

27. Something you're not wearing? Shoes

28. Favorite Store? The Loft

29. Your summer? Kids

30. Your favorite color? Pink

31. When is the last time you laughed? Today

32. Last time you cried? Yesterday

33. Who will/would re-post this? no clue

34. Four places I go over and over: Starbucks, Jason's Deli, Kids school, Grocery store

35. Four people who e-mail me: mom, sis, hubby, bff

36. Four of my favorite foods? Enchiladas, Egg rolls, Buffalo Ranch Doritos, Cheese (all about health, ya know.)

37. Four places I would like to be right now: WORKING, Beach, Away from this house, shopping (with money)

38. Four people I tag? Whoever wants it.

Calling all married couples....

2008-11-12T13:05:00.000-06:00

It's time to be "spiritual", says Ed Young, senior pastor of the Grapevine-based Fellowship Church.

I'm thinking that now that the election is over, they are in desperate need of news. This was actually on the front page of the Metro section.

Go go forth my friends and have a spiritual week (:

http://www.star-telegram.com/804/story/1033192.html

Remembering....

2008-11-11T12:56:00.000-06:00

update:
I just realized that by coincidence I posted this on Veteran's Day. My papa is a retired Air Force officer and proudly served his country during WWII.
Big thank you to my papa for serving and to my baby boy Blake who is serving now. Love you guys!
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I just returned from my grandparents and it was, as always, amazing. I love them more than I could ever express.

The following is a paper I wrote in college for an English Lit class. I've somehow managed to hang on to it all these many years. Maybe because it was one of the few A+'s I ever got haha. I'm thinking this must have been a paper on imagery and it looks like I had a comma fetish.

My grandparents have read it many times - they forget each time that they've already read it (:

I'm trying to think of a way to preserve it and give it to them as a Christmas gift. I would love any creative ideas!

Remembering.... 9/15/89

As I sit alone, feeling beaten down and broken hearted, as if so many of the happy times I've known in my life have been ripped away, feeling like a newborn baby being ripped from her mother, slowly and painfully, as a burning tear begins forming in the corner of my eye. For a moment I feel all is hopeless, then like a flash of lightening on a dark quiet night, my eyes begin to glow. I remember the wonderful times I had as a child and I know they are too magnificent to be simply thrown out like yesterday's trash. I begin to close my weary eyes, letting memories of trips to my grandparents' house begin to invade my dreams.

I slowly open the door, anxious to begin what lies ahead of me. As the door begins to open, I peak through the crack, and suddenly the door swings open. There he stands, this strong handsome man, with an incredibly inviting smile, waiting eagerly with his arms open wide. I take one look and I leap into his awaiting arms. The hug feels so safe, so protecting. I lay my head gently on his broad shoulder. I look over, and there she is, beautiful, glamorous, so highly intelligent, yet so soft and gentle. My smile begins to widen, and into her arms I go, as I inhale the sweet scent of my grandmother.

I gallantly walk throughout the big spacious home. The fresh flowers nestled in their place, like the scent of a newly grown garden. I look in awe at the shiny crystal lurking around the home. Everything is so perfect in its place, dustless, rich, untouchable, yet comfortable and welcoming. I slowly run my fingers across the mahogany table, feeling the rich texture on my skin. I deeply inhale a long breath, the princess has arrived at her castle. I giggle aloud and skip back to the front of the house, where the king and the queen are awaiting.

My grandmother and I walk hand in hand to the large, spacious, perfectly organized pantry. I stand, looking up, in this miraculous room, like a tiny rabbit eyeing a field of carrots. I choose my favorite flavor of cake, and begin getting excited. We walk back to the brightly lit kitchen, still hand in hand, and the long awaited adventure begins. Slowly, before my sparkling yes, my grandmother and I create an exquisite masterpiece. As we slip our piece of art into the the large oven, my grandmother lifts me high into the air and places me on the counter. She hands me the long awaited trophy, the beaters! I lick them slowly, methodically, blade by blade, wanting this ecstasy to last for eternity. As the buzzer begins its hum, we remove our masterpiece and I stand in amazement. Once again, my grandmother and I have succeeded.

The dining room table, looking like a page out of an expensive magazine, awaits the cherished food. We gather around the table as my grandfather, so intriguing, so big and strong, yet the softest and gentlest man I have ever known, softly thanks the Lord for the greatness in our lives. I sit in astonishment, watching this ideal man. I say a quiet prayer and I thank him for the two people I share this table with. As I begin to consume the delicious homemade meal in front of me, I inhale the sweet aroma of mt grandmother's cooking. I look at her in amazement, wondering how she can cook such a glamorous meal, and still look so exquisite. We laugh and talk together, as we savor each other's company.

The sweet aroma of my grandmother's night cream seeps throughout the house, and I know it is time. My smile beams from one ear to the other, as my grandfather flashes me his alluring grin. I take off down the long and wide hallway, lined with bright photographs of the family we all cherish. The bedrooms, all with their own tasteful personality, reach out and wave me on. I begin skipping to the sweet beat of love, for this time I relish. I arrive in my grandparent's bathroom with the lights shining bright, like a stage in a Broadway production, Act 1 is about to begin. My graceful grandmother hoists me high and places me atop the large stool, as I seep into the thick cushion of comfort. I begin to giggle incessantly as her soft,perfectly manicured fingers gently apply the cream to my innocent, radiant face. I know I am their Princess as my grandmother continues to pamper me tenaciously, complete with a manicure, from the fancy set that sits in its rich leather case. I begin to giggle again, knowing my favorite Act is about to begin, the toilet paper wrap, the time has come! She begins to slowly unwind the toilet paper from its roll, and sets the glistening hair pins on top of the shiny counter. I sit straight and tall while she begins to wrap my straight long hair. The soft fluffy paper tickles me as it begins to encircle my head. The treatment of a Princess is complete, as I proudly show off my new found crown.

All ready for bed, I leap enthusiastically into the big wide bed that awaits me. The sweet scent of my grandparents lie deep within the soft sheets. The pillows abundant, surround me, like trees in a forest. My grandparents join me, all dressed in their ironed pajamas, looking just as perfect as always. My eyes shine brightly, as I look at the two of them. What an exciting day this has been. I close my tired eyes and fall fast asleep, knowing that I am safe between these two that I cherish so much.

The bright sun shines through the bedroom windows, and I feverishly jump out of the bed, excited and anxious to begin another day in my castle. We all go into the living room and gather on the large comfortable couch. I sit nestled safely, feeling strong, protected, and secure, with my grandfathers arm wrapped tightly around my shoulder and my grandmothers soft hand resting gently on my knee.

Today, I sit in my home, all grown up, recalling these memories. These unforgettable times in my life, happy times, times when I knew no worry. These times cannot be erased by anyone or anything. I know that no matter how difficult times can be, and no matter what happens in my life, these are my memories. These are two people I love dearly and cherish with all my heart, for they are my King and my Queen and I am their Princess.

no internet bites!

2008-11-10T21:38:00.000-06:00

Finally home from my trip and arrived to a horrible storm!lighting, lots of rain and NO internet!!

So again, posting from my blackberry and I got nothing other than I started reading Twilight!! Guess what, kids in bed and I'm off to snuggle up with my book- with it pouring down rain! Heavenly!

grandparents

2008-11-09T22:21:00.000-06:00

I am the luckiest girl because besides my own kids, I have the best grandparents ever. At almost 40, I still feel like a spoiled and very loved little girl each time I am with them. I love them so much and tonight, at this moment, I'm snuggled up in their house with own kids making more memories.
Breaks my heart that they are getting so old though. I'm cherishing every moment, every hug and every story- even if I have heard it 10 times- today!!

Family & Football Fun

2008-11-08T11:24:00.000-06:00

I'm posting now, since I have a feeling I will totally forget if I don't do it now. Would hate to mess up my NoBlo mojo.

Today is Cade's superbowl!

We're off to breakfast now!

11:00 - Meet to decorate cars

11:30 - Pep Rally

12:15- Caravan to stadium with decorated cars and lots of obnoxious honking

1:30 - Kickoff!

4:00 - Football Party at one of the players house. Pizza and yes, BYOB! Knowing this group, win or lose, I have a feeling this will be a looonnnggg party that will include many trips to replenish the BYOB.

I have a sneaky suspicion we may lose this game. This team is actually much better than we are and the boys know they have to play their lil hearts out today. They are all so excited and so precious. Regardless, it will be a fun filled day of family and football. What more in life could you ask for? haha

We're off to get this party started (:

GO TEXANS! GO CADE!

Have a fabulous weekend!

Who would have known this precious baby boy would be playing in the Superbowl for the 2nd year in a row! OhMyGosh, doesn't hubby look so handsome and sooooo young!!

Blake Called!!

2008-11-07T12:39:00.000-06:00

I finally got to talk to him today and he is safe and sound in Germany! Though I did already know this, thanks to the internet.

He landed last Friday morning at 5am, after 17 hours of traveling and wasn't able to process in until the USO opened FOUR hours later. He wasn't able to sleep on the plane (he has his momma's anxiety, at times) so was awake for over 24 hours. The Army bussed him to his new base where he got to wait hours longer to be proccessed in there.

He also said the part of Germany he is in stinks and is dirty. He said the people are mostly the same - again, this is where he is. He's already made many friends - no surprise - and when he called they were all eating dinner at one the "married" guys house. hehe so funny, I'm sure his poor wife gets tired of all the young uns coming to eat "real food"!

He also proceeded to tell me:

There is a pub on every corner.

The drinking age is 16.

German beer is really thick and strong.

That's great, Blake. I sooo wanted to hear that from my 18 year old son.

He is off this afternoon to Paris with a group of friends to spend the weekend! What an exciting time for him!!

Oh, and the call ends with... hey, mom? Do you think you could deposit some money in my account? Or give me your cc # for the hotel this weekend?

Awwwww, now that's my baby boy!!!!!!

TV Memory Lane

2008-11-06T02:54:00.000-06:00

I saw this here and oh the memories came flashing back! I decided to "borrow" her idea because quite frankly, this NaBlo.... is becoming a pain in my PoMo and I'm also tired of politics at the moment.

My Favorite childhood TV shows!

Beverly Hillbillies - yeah, I know - scary but I loved this show! I guess it was because I thought it was just so cool that they "loaded up their stuff and they moved to Beverly....Hills that is....movie stars..." that's all I can remember!

Fantasy Island - Immediately following Love Boat every Saturday night, thank you very much! I didn't like this show at first because I thought it was a little scary. Yes, people I really did. Then I started to LOVE it! Tatoo was too cute! De plane, de plane!!

Dukes of Hazzard - What little girl didn't want to be Daisy Duke?? Ok, maybe those with a little higher morals and standards but I wanted to be her! I sound so shallow... hehe Of course, I will never forget Bo and Luke slidin' in through their windows. The movie was great and all but it just wasn't "the real" thing - not for me at least.

Punky Brewster - Love me some Punky!! I loved her freedom to express herself and her funky, Punky sense of style! Maybe because I always felt much "safer" in my Polo and Gloria Vanderbilts. hehe - yuck! My daughter tends to lean towards the funky, Punky and it cracks me up! Then, I coax her to change her clothes (:

Brady Bunch - Well now for real? Didn't we all? And yes, I could sooooo relate to Jan and her feelings for Shari, Shari, Shari - oops I mean, Marcia, Marcia, Marcia. Just kidding, sis! NOT!

Fact's of Life - OMG, to be Blair. I thought she was the real thing and I so wanted to go to a boarding school and be Blair. Yes, I was sent to a Boarding School and no I was not Blair but that's another post for another time. Then there was chubby Natalie and cutie Tootie. Great show!

Eight is Enough - GREAT show! David, oh sweet David, Hot, hot, hot! Maybe my love of this show inspired me to have 5 kids?!? Yeah, doubtful but you never know. This family always had sooo much going on and energy just radiated from their house!

Growing Pains - One reason I loved this show, KIRK CAMERON! OhMyGosh I was so in love with this boy. He was totally my childhood crush. I just saw the movie, Fireproof a couple of weeks ago because not only was it an awesome message, but OMG it starred KIRK CAMERON! I still crush on Kirk Cameron in a major way and not in a 13 year old girl way (:

Love Boat - Who didn't love to love the Love Boat on Saturday night?!? Oh, I so wanted to be Julie! She was sooo cool. Captain Stubing was such a strong, father figure and Issac? Oh, he was so funny!! I thought Doc was a lil sexy - you know, in a 13 year old girl kinda way. Then there was Gopher who was a lil too geeky for me.

Thanks for walking down memory...uh TV memory lane!

It matters.. or does it?

2008-11-05T09:07:00.000-06:00

Jen is one big BLEEP that starts with an F and rhymes with a SUCK!

That was last nights Facebook update and still applies.

I'm scared of what this election will bring to our country and to my son who is fighting for our country.

I hope and I pray that these "followers" he has know something I don't. His followers are bizarre - some of them, most of them. It's almost like a rock star and not a politician. Some people seem to worship this man. Then yesterday I saw a comment on another blog that said "it's like we're electing the president of the world." She was from Saudi. Have you have read Left Behind? It reminds me so much of Left Behind that it terrifies me on one hand but then again I've no doubt I won't be left behind.

I guess that just leaves me to pray and remember that no matter what the following still stands:

Top 10 Predictions No Matter Who Wins the Election

1. The Bible will still have all the answers.
2. Prayer will still work.
3. The Holy Spirit will still move.
4. God will still inhabit the praises of His people.
5. There will still be God-anointed preaching.
6. There will still be singing of praise to God.
7. God will still pour out blessings upon His people.
8. There will still be room at the Cross.
9. Jesus will still love you.
10. Jesus will still save the lost when they come to Him.

AND God approves this message!

ISN'T IT GREAT TO KNOW WHO IS REALLY IN CHARGE !

Thanks to my sis for sending me this message last night. It was a good reminder of the truth and helped me sleep (:

I know many bloggers will be upset when they read this and you have that right. I hope and pray you are correct and he will be an amazing leader. I hope our country will pull together. I pray but I doubt.

SOS - Blog Behind??

2008-11-04T12:58:00.000-06:00

Why is my blog posting a day behind? Anyone know how to fix this?? Help!

update: it fixed itself. weird, stuff.

PeeWee Football Drama... Yeah, seriously

2008-11-03T17:59:00.000-06:00

Cade is in the Superbowl this coming weekend. Yes, he is in 3rd grade and only 8 years old. Remember, we live in TEXAS! In Texas, football is serious stuff people. And, top it off with the fact that my husband, Cade's father, is a former High School football/basketball coach. Serious stuff here. See where I'm going with this? Football matters.

Yesterday morning I awoke to an e-mail from our Head Coach stating he was calling a Parent Meeting and inviting the Commissioner because evidently we had some parents that were very upset about the lack of playing time their kids got the last game. OMG - for real? We barely won and in all honesty, we really didn't think we would beat that team but WE DID!

This is NOT the YMCA - we don't "all win" at the end of the game. We don't all get "equal playing time". No, this is pretty serious stuff and you know what, the boys LOVE it! They are all part of a winning team. Every boy wins just as much as the other - it is a TEAM. Not that anything is wrong with the YMCA. All 4 of our boys started at the Y but when they were ready for competitive ball, they moved to a competitive league. This league is very competitive. Our kids have all loved this league and have made their very best of friends while playing in this league. We have also met and made many new friends. All good people who pour time and energy into their kids and the weekends are all about family. In my book, that's a real good thing.

We rented out a field that has lights (thanks, time change) for tonight and Thursday for practice. Yes people, this is Texas football. Plans are for the moms to make noise makers, banners and anything and everything else we can create while the boys practice. The dads that aren't official coaches will be on the practice field as they always are, assisting the coaches any way they can. This is an AWESOME group of parents that all work together. Other than the 3 sour apples that is. They sit together and moan and bad mouth.

After practice tonight, we're all gathering at our favorite place, The Catfish Grill, for yummy catfish and more celebration - ok and yeah, really cold beer. Fun stuff and excitement leading up to Saturday's Superbowl!

As a TEAM it will be a week of celebration but the sad thing is that I bet everything I have that those 3 little boys will not be allowed to attend the celebrations. Not because they aren't a part of the team - they ARE! Because their parents won't allow them to be part of a TEAM. A team that wins together and a team that loses together. A team that celebrates success together. My heart aches for these poor boys because all 3 are young and this is their first year to ever play ball. And ya know what? ALL THREE have smiles on their faces when they are on the field and sure look like they are having a blast! They celebrate with the team when they win, jumping for joy and laughing - until their parents pull them by the arm and march them to the car with scowls on their faces. How sad. How truly sad.

Is that really what these parents want to teach their kids?

I will personally and with all sincerity be sure to congratulate these 3 kids individually tonight at practice. I will tell them how proud I am of them for being part of the TEAM. I will make sure their parents hear me too because I'm just kinda bitchy like that.

So for now, GO TEXANS and oh yeah, I forgot to mention that this is the THIRD year in a row this team has gone to the Superbowl and hopefully the THIRD time in a row to WIN!

My closet shrunk my clothes!?!

2008-11-02T19:21:00.000-06:00

So I'm starting a new job soon. My clothes all shrunk. Like really, really bad. One size? No. Two sizes? Nope. Try THREE sizes too small. The 'big" pants? Ya know the ones you wear when you're having a fat day? omg - they won't even begin to zip. Gross. Nasty. Disgusting. Granted I was borderline anorexic when I last worked, but still. THREE sizes? GAG!

All my beautiful clothes I worked hard to get. I paid good money for these clothes. Now they sit and continue to get dusty. Since I do enjoy self torture so much, I've actually tried a few of the larger pieces on and well... one of my "big" tops got stuck & I couldn't get it off. Yeah, seriously lol it was a pretty sight. Pretty funny, that is!

Even though I'm having a real hard time seeing the glass half full on this one, at least it's Fall and thank God I don't have to show the flab that's developed on my arms. My birthday is coming up so my wonderful and always supportive Mom took me on a grand shopping spree and I mean a serious spree! She kept reminding me that I could take them to the tailor to get them taken in once I lost weight - I do have the BEST Mom ever, seriously.

Oh and the glass is half full because even though I am now fat, Cymbalta and the high dosage I need... totally rocked. I am comfortably numb. Peace out.

Bloggin' Everyday in November... I think I can, I think I can. Maybe.

2008-11-01T02:54:00.000-05:00

I just joined NaBloPoMo!

So how can I come up with 30 days straight of blogging material - on this family blog. It's so easy to blog about my life when no one really knows me. But now? I've invited family and friends here so it's a little more challenging.

I wonder if I will have enough to talk about.

Let's see with 5 kids, a husband, a new job, holidays upon us, and lots of cute pictures of my family. Yep, I think I can do it!

Germany? Hold on. I'm not done.

2008-10-31T09:23:00.000-05:00

I'm excited for him. I'm so proud of him.

But me? I'm numb. I'm scared. I'm sad.

I just hung up with Blake. After an hour conversation, his layover had come to an end and he was about to board for Germany. My baby boy is not a baby anymore? I'm sitting here wondering where time went.

How is it possible that my baby boy is on his way to Germany - alone?

Wasn't it just yesterday that I was a young clueless 20 year old girl attempting to give birth to a 9lb 14oz baby boy?

Was it really 18+ years ago that my dad welcomed his first grandchild home serenading him with, "grandpa, tell me bout the good ole days."

It couldn't have been that long ago that my lil brother would gather his high school buddies around to hear Blake explain how he liked to suck suckers - only he didn't have the "s" sound down just yet but did have the "f" sound. Although I would cringe, his uncle was so proud.

Is his love for baseball really over? Did I really complain about all those practices? Did I really wish he didn't have baseball every.single.night? Can I not just have one more year of us spending all that time in the car talking and laughing as we drove to practices and games? Please? I promise to cherish every minute this time.

Will we really never have another day where i pick him up after football practice and have him ask me to go Sonic? Can I have him back as a boy for just another month?

Does he not want me to take him and his girlfriend to the mall this weekend and then make the one hour round trip to take her home? Really, I don't mind at all.

Wasn't it just a few days ago when he decided he wanted to graduate early from high school and join the Army? Did I really agree to that? Any chance I could change my mind now?

I know it was a few months ago when he boarded the plane for basic training in NC and I was so worried that he would get lost. Now, he's flying alone to Germany?

He really won't be here this year for Christmas? But wait, I didn't get our yearly Christmas picture. Maybe he could come back for our picture? No? Just one more Christmas he can be my baby?

I tell him this morning that I will be counting the days until we can fly to Germany to be together again over Spring Break. Did he really just tell me there's a very good chance he will be in Afghanistan or maybe even Iraq? But wait, your recruiter told us that your job would keep you away from the fighting. Hold on. What the hell? Can we go back and talk to that recruiter?

Oh, its time to board the flight? But, wait. Don't ever forget how much you are loved and how proud I am to be your mom. I already said that 5 times? Oh, ok then.

Are you really on the way to Germany right now? Is your childhood really over? Serious?

Be sure you call me when you get to the base and let me know you are safe. OK? What? Why are you laughing? You think you're a big boy now, huh?

The Army may call him a man but he will always be my baby boy. My first born. The little miracle that changed everything I was and made me strive to become more.

My job as his mother was to teach him and give him the tools to become an adult. What if I wasn't done? What if I want to be his mommy for a little longer? What if I'm not ready to let him go?

Please, Lord take care of my baby boy and never let him forget how deeply he is loved.

I am so incredibly proud of you Blake and your passion for serving your country.

Safe travels baby boy. But be sure you check in with your momma, k?

Callie and Averie - BFF's

2008-10-27T11:32:00.000-05:00

5 years ago I would have laughed at the thought of these 2 being the best of friends. My bff Jen, Averie's mom, was Callie's babysitter for the first year of her life. Averie was a 10 months older than Callie and Callie was totally "on her turf" and she did not like it one bit.

Fast forward a few years and these two girls are the best of friends. They play together for hours and hours. Their favorite game is babies. They love them some babies and love being little mommies. It warms my heart to see them play together and the adoration they have for one another.

Although Averie now lives hours away (boo, hiss) we were lucky enough to have her come spend lots of time with us this last summer and can not wait to see her and her big sis Aubreigh again soon - and her momma :)

Birthday Letter to my Baby Girl

2008-10-26T16:14:00.000-05:00

Dear Callie,

My darling sweet angel girl. I can not believe you are 5 years old. It seems like just yesterday when the nurse doing my sonogram said, "see these 2 lines? It's a girl!!"

Baby girl, you are the sweetest thing with the kindest heart. It sometimes worries me that you are so kind. I fear the day when you finally realize everyone in the world is not as kind as you. You have slowly begun to see that and you have already experienced hurt from your friends in small doses but you never fail to go right back and become their friend again - even though they hurt your feelings. My sweet girl, you are truly an angel.

When I think of this last year, I think CHEER! You do love to cheer about anything and everything. "Momma, I need a cup - oh yeah. I need some ice - oh yeah. I need water - oh yeah. Then I rock it all the way down. Woohoo, Go Texans!" You even got daddy to join you in stunts! Only you could get daddy to take his position, do the cheer with you and then hold you in your stunts! It is a precious and heart warming sight.

At 5 years old, you still love to cuddle up like a newborn baby and I must admit, I love it. My little snuggle bug, as long as you are cuddled up with me you will sleep ALL.DAY.LONG. But the minute I get up, your eyes pop open and of course, you smile. Yes, we both really need to get over this :)

You have also begun a little drama this year. The funny thing is that though you try and be a dramatic little girl, you usually start smiling and grinning once you realize what a toot you are being!

You do love your big brothers and you love for them all to be around you. You have a had a difficult time this year with your bubba Blake being so far away. If you're playing outside and you see a military plane you run to let me know you just saw bubba Blake! Or we pass an Army convoy and you get so excited, "look momma, there's bubba Blake!" You love you some bubbas and they all adore you as well.

You also love spending time with your cousins. You and Miles enjoyed spending lots of time together this summer. The two of you play so well together! He listens to everything you tell him to do and you listen to him. It's adorable to watch you two interact. Audrey and Bailey - of course you LOVE you some babies, though they really aren't babies anymore. They are bigger than you now, but you still call them your babies. The three of you have so much together and I think I have just as much fun watching you! You 3 girly girls crack me up! Allie, oh how you adore your cousin Allie. You look up to her with such love and adoration. You couldn't have a better role model. Tanner and Brendon adore you and you adore them as well. You love their big hugs and never see them without making sure you get one - or three. You also got to spend a couple of days with your cousins Ali and Cole in Austin and you had such a fun time getting to know Ali. I hope and pray you're able to spend more time with them and get to know them like you should.

I can't wait to watch you grow in your 5th year. You are so beautiful and you are so loved by all that know you.

Happy 5th Birthday to my precious angel.

I love you so much,
Mom

First Day of School, 2008

2008-10-26T15:49:00.000-05:00

Yes, only Cade would willingly let me take his picture and I didn't care to argue so just Cade this year.

Remember, you can double click on the picture to enlarge it and then hit the back button to come back to this page. (You're welcome, grandparents.)

Yes, trying to move pictures from my private blog to this blog for all to enjoy. Please be patient as I "catch up".

Pumpkin Patch

2008-10-15T11:19:00.001-05:00

We had such a fabulous time last week at the Pumpkin Patch with Callie and her cousins Audrey and Bailey. I am so grateful for the three weeks they were here (well, at my parents house.) South Texas is just way too far and we wish they lived closer! We're very lucky to have a close family, though not in distant, and we get to see them often.

I just have to say - my family is so incredible. This last year had shown me just how incredible they truly are. I am blessed. My husband and kids are so very blessed to have them, as well.

Once upon a time...

2008-10-09T15:41:00.000-05:00

Welcome to our family blog!